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aWell, I really didn't expect that you'll read my blog. I'm really touched. :) really am. Didn't received your text for quite some time. You would always love to drop me text randomly. Hahah. Please don't feel that you're unwelcome. Always remember that in mind, I'm really happy each time I saw your text. :) don't get the wrong idea alright?

Anyway.. Recently we back to my "clubbing mood". Not bad actually but I just missed those times where me and my cliques would be clubbing together and enjoying ourselves. Should have take more photos back then! Grrr! But! I still managed to get to know new people! :) which I love a lot. As in I love knowing new people. Hahah. But it's kinda complicated... Don't know how to put it.

Yesterday was a nightmare for me.. Had a very bad gastric pain for one whole night till today afternoon. Gosh.. The pain really irritate me a lot. I'm so so so tired but I couldn't sleep because of the damn pain.. At that point of time I was thinking how I wish there's someone beside me taking care of me.. :\ I doubt it'll never happen lah.

So I have to bare with this pain the whole day till I knocked off. Luckily the pain goes off after lunch. If not I surely suffer. Hahah! Worst thing is I tried to vomit, but there's nothing coming out. Sucky feeling.. >.< oh ya! I wanna watch "The Avengers"!!! But no one wanna watch with me.. :\ everyone watched already. Or not interested in that movie. Sad right! T^T

You know there's a lot things going through my mind.. I don't know how to say and who to say to.. Hais....

You know as days past.. I realised, I'm actually a loner.. :\ I want someone to be there for me whenever I need someone. I want a warm hug. I want a faithful guy which can accept my everything. I want someone who doesn't keep secrets/tell lies. I just want someone simple..

Recovered

Been sick for the whole week! The feeling really sucks. Never been sick for so long before. Yeah, didn't go for work for one whole week too. Gahh. Monday go back need to work extra hard. :\ since no one gonna help me at all.

And yeah! Good news! I probably gonna take private Diploma at PSB. Maybe I guess. I sort of kinda convince my mum already, but she was kinda disapprove cause of the distance. She's afraid there isn't enough time from my work place to Tiong Bahru. But I seriously don't mind traveling!

But right now I'm still waiting for my NTUC card to arrive. Then I start to apply the "thingy" I don't know how to put. Hahah. All I know I have to settle this whole thing within this month. Hopefully I can get in. Cause I want a better pay and a better company.

Anyway, recently loads of stuffs happened to me. As usual, love life. Heeee... Well, I have a guy in mind.. But people would think that I'm stupid. Cause I never meet him before. We only text and chat over the phone once? Yeah.

From what I see, to me probably he's a nice guy but I'm not 100% sure. But who cares, no one is perfect. He said he had feelings for me too but I don't know. Everything is just too complicated.. But I really feel comfortable when I talk to him about my stuffs. And I can rant all I want. He would just listen.

But to him, I don't know what he's thinking. Cause our message is like, he will ignore me for some time but he still read my messages when I send him. And sometimes he would just randomly reply me. Which is really surprising.

So I'm kinda confuse. Everything is too complicated. Lol. Makes me wanna give up. Hahah... Well, love sucks! Fuck love.







A.T, you know I won't give up. I just want the chance. I know it's impossible..